Bonds growing frustrations

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SAN FRANCISCO -- Barry Bonds is growing impatient with losing.

The San Francisco slugger said Thursday his level of disappointment is "the most in my whole career" -- and that's 19 major league seasons he's talking about.

"It's easier to sit there and write your newspaper (articles) and say we're struggling and all the other stuff, but nobody feels the effect as hard as we do," Bonds said. "Nobody goes out there to fail. No one's going out there to embarrass themselves.

"When you win, everything flows. Everybody is just flowing and things are happening and one bad situation doesn't dictate the whole game. But when you're losing, one bad situation blows up everything. Everyone is like 'Aahh, here we go again.' It's just human nature and that's just the way it happens. We just have to come out of it," he said.

Not only are the Giants having a hard time with all aspects of the game, Bonds isn't getting many chances to hit.

In a 4-3 loss to the Philadelphia Phillies on Thursday, Bonds went 1-for-2 with a single, a strikeout and three walks, two intentional.

The six-time NL MVP leads the majors with 54 walks, and he has 10 homers. He's third on the career home run list with 668, behind Babe Ruth (714) and Hank Aaron (755), but just about every opposing manager will say it's better to walk him than get beaten by him.

Bonds drew 148 walks last year, 198 in 2002 and 177 during his record-setting 2001 season when hit a single-season-best 73 homers.

On his current pace, he will finish with about 250 walks.

Bonds has been playing day games after night games this season -- something he rarely did a year ago -- because he wants to do whatever he can to turn things around.

The Giants' record fell to 15-20 a year after they led the NL West from opening day on the way to 100 wins.

"Losing ain't positive," Bonds said. "There ain't nothing positive about it."

Bonds believes the Giants need to string wins together in a hurry to have a chance of getting back in the division race.

"It's tough. We just haven't been able to put it together for more than a day," he said. "That's the problem. We probably had two days where we looked better and played better but it has to be more consistent. We have to put a week together. We haven't been able to do that."